I'm still spending time with the boy but he is also still spending time with her. So what do I do now? If I moan, he'll pull away from me which is not what I want. But if I don't say anything at all, he'll never understand exactly how much he's hurting me. It hurts less now than say, 6 months ago but will I eventually be numb to it all? I can't decide if thats what I want to feel. But when he and I are together, things are so good. I know he lies about me to her i.e when I'm there or if I stay over and to be honest it feels like we're having an affair! Everything about me is a secret. Is this a good thing or a bad thing? I can't decide.